Dreams, Soul Searching and Tears.

I had a dream once.

I have been doing a lot of soul searching.

And with that comes a lot of tears.

Yes my dream was to have a horse ever since I could remember.

And on.....

April 14th, 2006

I realized that dream when I got Sissy.

But lately I have been doing a lot of soul searching too.

Because it has been over 3 years,

and I am not to the place I thought I would be at.

I keep telling myself that "Patience" is a virtue and that I will be rewarded.

At this point I can not see it.

WHY?

It is me....

It is NOT my horse.

I have done a lot with Sissy.

From the GROUND!

She listens to me.

She will follow my lead.

Why, I can even get her to TIPPY TOE!

Yes, if we ever had to sneak into some place, Sissy could do it!

A year ago,

I got another horse to help to build my riding confidence.

That confidence was really shot down in the past week.

I took Sadie and Sissy to an obstical trail challenge.

I had no intention of riding Sissy through,

my goal was to walk her through it.

 Expose her to different things.

 

 She snorted at all the new smells.

 

 Sissy is making it look easy, and the photos do not show

her acting up because in the background Sadie is Whinnying!

As well as she was.

She was being an unruly child!

See....3 feet from each other!

But yet, I can find one on each end of the pasture at different times.

 

A very good friend and prior owner of Sadie Rode her through the challenge.

 

It was not a good experience.

Sissy and Sadie are so buddy sour they could not get

10 feet from each other.

Whinny and carry on they did.

Neither of us had the soul attention of our horses.

I feel like I have ruined Sadie, because she never use to be like that.

Although, I AM ONE that DOES SPEND TIME with her horses!

I groom them!

Bathe them!

Give them good scratches!

Talk to them!

Walk with them!

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At times I feel that maybe I should just ignore them,

Don't pay any attention to them!

Never groom them!

Don't teach them any manners!

Never handle them!

Just sit and watch them play in the field, and run as a wild herd!

Because I can tell you, that is exactly what my neighbors philosophy is

and ONCE a year, THEY RIDE! And there is not even a rodeo!

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Then a couple days later on a beautiful day,

I thought I would take Sadie for a walk down to the river.

(Because my goal is to be able to ride along the river.)

She did very well, with Sissy whinnying in the back ground till we were out of ear shot,

and on the sand.

When we got to the sand, something struck Sadie,

weather it was the smell of the water,

or the realization that Sissy was not around,

I am not sure.

 Doing some back ups.

 

Totally alert, looking for something!

But run all over me she did.

I made her do circles,

lots of backing up.

30-40 minutes we worked on the sand.

Finally I did get her to calm down enough to be able to leave the beach.

I was tired, but it was a good tired.

 

No way would I of been able to ride her through that.

My riding skills are beginner level.

I do happen to be the only one in my neighborhood to

take my horses for a

"WALK"

Literally!

My goal at this time in my life, was to be able to go out,

toss my saddle on my horse,

and take a short spin around the pasture.

I am not even looking at trail riding at this point!

JUST the pasture, and I would be happy!

I have a chance to take lessons with my favorite instructor,

but they are on Thursdays at 6 PM. 

You know what the means?

IT IS DARK outside.

Go catch my horse in the dark.

Put other horse in round pen in the dark.

Load my horse in the dark.

Unload my horse in the dark.

I am not totally comfortable with that. 

Yet.

I am doing a lot of soul searching to see if I can see myself even riding my horse.

If not, then I need to find a home for her.

and this is where the tears come in.

I can not even fathom the idea of Sissy living anywhere else.

It tears my heart and guts up inside.

But her being a pasture pet, is totally out of the question.

So what do you with a horse, 

that, 

because of your own self confidence level

you are not comfortable riding?

Am I selfish keeping her?

I don't know.

Can I find her a forever home?

I doubt it. (Nothing is guaranteed forever!)

Do I enjoy spending time with her?

Yes, very much so.

 Can I have a second horse?

No, because Sissy corrupts them immediately.

With the winter coming on, and hay in the barn, 

I think I will hibernate on it.

Maybe the spring time will bring a renewed

joy in my heart and courage that I will 

need to work on my confidence level.

Best Friends 4-Ever!

We have been friends since highschool.

This is me and Roseann in 1975.

Our Senior year.

It takes a long time to grow an old friend! ~John Leonard

We have always remained friends through the years.

Life took us on different paths but the paths always seemed to meet somewhere.

When our paths meet,

we have a blast.

I am the wild and crazy one,

and she is the mild and sensible one.

I am the one that thinks of silly things to do,

and she is the one that says "ok" I'm game.

A good friend will come bail you out of jail,

but a true friend will be sitting next to you saying:

"Damn, that was fun!"

We can sit on a porch swing together, never say a word,

then walk away feeling like it was the best

conversation that we ever had.

When she is sad, "I" will help her get drunk and plot revenge.

When she is blue, "I" will help to dislodge whatever is choking her.

When "I" Smile, she will know I finally got laid!

When I am worried, "She" will tell me horrible stories about how much worse it could be.

When "She" is confused, "I" will use little words.

When "She" is sick, I will tell her to stay away from me until she is well again,

I do not want whatever she has.

When "she" falls, I will point and laugh at her clumsiness.

A good friend will help you move.

A REALLY Good Friend will help you move a body!

I will let her know if she ever needs to bring me a shovel.

Us today!

 

 Friendship is like peeing your pants,

Everyone can see it,

but only you can feel the true warmth!

BEST FRIENDS 4-EVER!

Helicopters help out....

The other day as I was headed home from town,

I came upon this helicopter hovering in the air.

We have these big power lines because we

live next to McNary Dam

NOT

that we get our power from there.

Of course NOT!

We get our power from Bonneville Dam.

To the left you can see a man on the top line,

and if you get your magnifying glass out you can

see one below him in orange.

 The helicopter was moving the item on the line

from the left to the right.

 

 It was a pretty slick operation.

 

 In the 30+ years we have lived here,

I have never seen anything like this being done.

 

 

 The photo above reminds me of: AIRWOLF!

Remember that show?

 

 

 

I thought this would be interesting to share,

and wouldn't you know.....

THE POWER WENT OUT

as I was creating this blog,

and lost it all!

I had to redo it!

So I best be saving and posting before the battery backup at

my server goes dry!

Helping the Starfish dogs of Arizona!~

I have put up some auctions on Ebay.

From each of these auctions I am going to donate a dollar,

to help fund the rescue and recovery of the dogs

in Arizona that

MIKEY

and

SUSAN

are working on gathering up!

If anyone that reads my blog is interested in helping out with donations,

FEEL FREE!

They need food more than anything right now.

These dogs are very very hungry!

If you are interested in purchasing a

NECK SOCK

from me,

Just send me an email.

These make awesome warmers!

You don't have the tail from a scarf that always blows away, and unwraps your neck!

Neck Sock

Will keep your neck warm on those cold weather Motorcycle rides.

Or while you are skiing.

Or 4-wheeling.

Or just out in the cold weather.

It beats the scarves because you do not have a tail that hangs over your shoulder.

Long enough to pull over your nose if need be.

One size fits all.

See I wear one when I go feed my horses:

They comes in a variety of colors, and when purchasing let me know what color you prefer.

Please help these gals out!

THANK YOU!

Roses and Bugs!

Here it is, almost the end of October, and I still have roses!

My Pussy Willow tree provides a little to much shade, and

so they have grown quite tall.

I love taking close ups of my roses.

 They are so pretty!

 

 

 

Then there was this huge guy!

He was on my screen door and one of my girls spied him.

I could of swore I heard the critter hissing, but not sure.

So I rescued him, and for that he had to give me a photo shoot!

 

 

 

 

 

I am not a bug person,

But.....

I love Praying Mantis's.

They are good and do you know they prey on

WOLF SPIDERS!

Yes they do!

So I will keep them around all the time.

I only see them occassionally.

I need to research them more, to make my garden more friendly for them.

Someone is in need.........

I have not posted in awhile. I have been busy. No excuse I know.

But now someone needs help!!!!

Here is a link to her post:

Animals In NEED

And here is another post:

Pictures of those in need.

Read these blogs.

If you can find it with in your budget,
and your heart!

PLEASE help send something

to get more food for these animals, until

they can be safely captured.

SEND ME AN EMAIL, and

I will forward where funds

can be sent.

These two gals are doing everything they can to help these poor dogs!

Let US help them as much as we can!

THANK YOU!

The Cowboy and the Preacher

 I got this in my email today and thought it was rather cute, and am sharing it with all my blogger friends, instead of forwarding the email around. As I say, not much goes around that I have not read before, but this one I do not remember and it brought a smile, and I hope it brings a smile to someone else.

The Cowboy and the Preacher  

One Sunday, a cowboy went to church. When he entered, he saw that he and the preacher were the only ones present. The preacher asked the cowboy if he wanted him to go ahead and preach.

The cowboy said, "I'm not too smart, but if I went to feed my cattle and only one showed up, I'd feed him."

So the minister began his sermon.

One hour passed, then two hours, then two-and-a-half hours. The preacher finally finished and came down to ask the cowboy how he had liked the sermon.

The cowboy answered slowly, "Well, I'm not very smart, but if I went to feed my cattle and only one showed up, I sure wouldn't feed him all the hay." 

A Quarter of a Century!

I am up to a quarter of a Century of FOLLOWERS!

WoooHooo!

Thank you to each and every one of you!

I look forward to many more.

TO ALL YOU HUNTERS OUT THERE!

I don't come from a long line of hunters,

but I married into them.

This is from a San Francisco newspaper!

And Folks, just remember as you read this, this person probably drives AND votes! And, may have already reproduced!

 

My hubby and sons are getting ready for there hunt this year.

When I was younger, YES I COULD of been the one to write this, but I have wised up over the years.

"I think."